raineisloved

things took a turn too fast..
the current mi is in pain...
i do not knw wat i can do to stop all this...
it's not easy..really not easy..

it's all my fault..i'm sorry..
i haven been a gd one to u...
u ended it and i guess this is the punishment receive frm god..
the pain is unbearable...
i have to put on a strong front in front of everyone...
not letting my guards down..my life became totally lost for directions...totally moodless..
i jus hope tears drown mi now...so i do not have to think..jus let everything end but i knw it is very foolish of me to hae this thinking...

i was still happily laughing with u 2 days ago...jking abt everything...but now..we have becum two single individual...i knw u are in pain to...i do not knw wat i can do but maybe this solution u propose will help free u frm agony...

i still wan to thank you for loving mi so much...thank you for appearing in my life..thank you for revolving around my world always..i'm sorry i hurt u...i think i deserve this punishment..thank you for loving mi for this 2.5 yrs...whether in future will our tracks intercross again i do not knw but i jus knw 1 thing...i still love you and i will always do as u're the one i love most in my life..pls take gd care of urself...

sorry for all this...but i'm realy low so maybe for the next few days blog post shall be boring...if u dun like jus dun read..thank you...

a song in which i think describe m feelings now...


心墙 - 郭静
一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天　
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越　我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

off to ponder...