raineisloved

it's been exactly 2 weeks since i last blog...
been busy busy...
most of my nites were occupied with work..
i'm loving my job..learnin new stuff always...
making more new friends...
i'm loving my colleague the most..all crazy ppl..
happy working environment...

but sometimes..things jus dun go ur way..
jus when i tot things were settling in..
shit starts to pile up...
now my job...i dunno issit screwed or wat..
i mean i uds mr S position and plight but still...
i jus think that it is really unfair...
why does it have to be mi being the unlucky one..
i'm doin wat i can to prove tat i'm worth the job but...
becux of timing..jus becux of timing..
it's nt abt competency...i guess i handle stuff well enuff..
in any case..i dun think i'll lose to anyone new tat is cuming in becux i knw how things work there..on a regular basis cux i worked for like 2 weeks already..
n now u jus drop mi a bomb tellin mi cux u guys are cutting cost den i have to be the one suffering..
it's not like i did things wrongly or wat..
i work doubly hard...i do things that are nt under my job scope too...
i tried hard enuff to break the barrier to mingle...
this is so unfair...
i'm so stranded...
so..wat am i suppose to do now...
oh god...

it seems that i'm always the unlucky one...
be it for work, relationship or even casting for events...
nv was i once lucky to be taken frm the start...
it's always either ppl last min back out den i join as a back up or most of the time i always ends up with nth...
why? well..interestingly i found out stuff frm mr jc tat ppl are making comments abt mi..
ppl who worked events with mi before..
wow...something "new" i guess...
ugly comments...hello..excuse mi...i'm like so unlucky ugly and blah blah blah...
nt as lucky as u girls so easily get selected and stuff...
simply to put it i'm those that helps to clear shit left behind by u ppl...
if u think that i'm despo, bitchy bimbotic den how bout u tell mi..which such a unlucky life with so lil chance passin by ur door...nv once had a chance to really be the one in anything does nt deserve the least of having any rites to jus live her life her way? all i ever did was to jus smile my days aways...doing things tat i like...if u think that by making such comments can make ur life more happy den really..go ahead...i cant do much..it's ur brain..ur mouth and ur tots...

i knw myself..i like it the way i like it..i dun think i need to answer to anyone except for myself...
i dun need ur comments..cux..this comments serve no purpose at all...
wateva it is..i dun really care..go ahead...

bitch all u wan...
cux at the end of the day..it will jus show others how ugly u are...
really tired..
gonna head to bed..
hopefully job stuff can be solved...
i jus hope it will end up nice and gd..
i dun wanna lose this job cux i love it..
credits to the dearies that workhard tgt with mi..
ppl..u knw who u are..
much loved~

nitex