day 2 w/o u...

skipped sch today since i had fever ytd nite...
mummy did wake mi up in the morning but i was too weak to go sch becux of the med i took...
slpt till 2 plus den got up to prepare for work..
went to work earlier cux shop today only got sharon and cecillia...
sharon worked till 5pm den i took over...sales was still alrite even though not much ppl but we still manage to close a 1.5k...

after work...too tired..so came home to rest...
some thoughts were runnin in my brain...
the thoughts jus constantly reminds mi of u...
u promise to go club with me the next time i ask...u promise to send mi transformer 1 den watch transformer 2 with mi in the cinema this weekend...but it seems like it will not happened for now...i'm still hoping and waitin for that special someone to ask mi out to catch the movie..with him..

i miss you alot

nitex, i'm off to bed..

day 1 w/o u...

empty was wat i can describe...
wateva i did for today seems all meaningless...
skipped lesson becux was not in the mood and not feeling well...partly also becux of the confusing e-mail sent by the sch...

laid around at home for the day...everything i saw were related to you, ur army shirt, our pic, the gifts but most imptly...our dog...my baby fire...

fire seems to knw tat i'm in a bad shape..all he did was stay close to me...even though he was mostly slping away but he kept mi company...whereever i move he'll follow...barking at mi to play with him making sure i nv go think abt stuff...but...seeing him reminds mi of u and how fire only recognizes u and not others..always sticking behind ur trail...following u around my hse...

our lil silly

i have no feel for anything..ppl asking mi out to dinner, not wanting mi to start thinkin...i rejected all...all i wanted to do was to stay home...didnt have much appetite..no mood to eat too...hmm..seems like a new way to go on diet? haha..i still can jk? maybe on this part only..i think sooner or later i'll be losing the ability to smile?

one more song tat truly express my feelings...another nice song...

记得-张惠美

谁还记得
　
是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手
　
说要一起走到最后


我们都忘了　

这条路走了多久

心中是清楚的　

有一天　有一天都会停的

让时间说真话

虽然我也害怕 在天黑了以后　

我们都不知道会不会有以后

谁还记得　

是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久　

没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手　

说要一起走到最后


我们都累了　却没办法往回走

两颗心都迷惑　

怎么说　怎么说都没有救

亲爱的为什么

也许你也不懂

两个相爱的人

等着对方先说想分开的理由



谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候

我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空

走的太远　终于走到分岔路的路口

是不是你和我　要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

it's still unchanged...

tmr is a work and sch day..
need to try to slp...haven really been slping..
i jus hope i fall aslp at least for a few hours so that i have energy to work...
off to bed..gdnitex

PS. thanks to all my ladies who consoled mi...not forgettin seniors and sch mates too..thank you..i'll try to be fine...i'll try to get back to the normal me...give mi sometime...

things took a turn too fast..
the current mi is in pain...
i do not knw wat i can do to stop all this...
it's not easy..really not easy..

it's all my fault..i'm sorry..
i haven been a gd one to u...
u ended it and i guess this is the punishment receive frm god..
the pain is unbearable...
i have to put on a strong front in front of everyone...
not letting my guards down..my life became totally lost for directions...totally moodless..
i jus hope tears drown mi now...so i do not have to think..jus let everything end but i knw it is very foolish of me to hae this thinking...

i was still happily laughing with u 2 days ago...jking abt everything...but now..we have becum two single individual...i knw u are in pain to...i do not knw wat i can do but maybe this solution u propose will help free u frm agony...

i still wan to thank you for loving mi so much...thank you for appearing in my life..thank you for revolving around my world always..i'm sorry i hurt u...i think i deserve this punishment..thank you for loving mi for this 2.5 yrs...whether in future will our tracks intercross again i do not knw but i jus knw 1 thing...i still love you and i will always do as u're the one i love most in my life..pls take gd care of urself...

sorry for all this...but i'm realy low so maybe for the next few days blog post shall be boring...if u dun like jus dun read..thank you...

a song in which i think describe m feelings now...


心墙 - 郭静
一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天　
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越　我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

off to ponder...

Work was all the same...
already hit target and dun wanna do more sale but still we manage to close at 2k...so weird...
hahha...

before work end, jelene suddenly suggested to head for chomp chomp for a mini gathering with evone...SO....i agreed~

got her a new bag from charles and keith...lol..she jus cant stop smilling..when she aw us and the gift..ahah..den we train down to bishan...change to circle line to s'goon and on board bus 317 to our destination CHOMP CHOMP...

we reached there around 1130...crowded with lots of ppl...finally got a seat and started ordering food...lol...started our eating session at 1200? lol...yummy food jus keep us munching on and on...lol..only when we finish den we continue with our chit chatting...lol..lots of stuff shared..i enjoyed myself thru out the mini gathering =)

after all the nonsense topic..lol..we left to take cab...so coincidentally met mr johan and his gf Again! like again...lol..the world is so small yo..haha...i share cab hom with jelene while evone cab home on her own...different directions~

reached home around 2.30am and camwhoring session started cux i suddenly find my blog rather boring without visuals so..her comes the visuals...

my productsare finally here~

yeah~ new facial product for mummy( sharing with mi) and new hand cream for daddy~

fav pic of the day<3>

camwhore all done..bath and off to bed...couldnt slp so i went online to facebook gaming again..
some stuff happened yet again and it did not end nicely...haix...it's always returning back to the same thing...i seriously do not knw wat i can say and do to stop this thing from happening again...

kk..lets skip the ugly part...
raine is always bubbly..so..must be bubbly~
ohohoh..congrats to mr L for cumin in 3rd frm his competition...pics of his trophy shall be up after he snaps it with his lousy i phone camea and send it to my e-mail=)

off to gamin...tata~

slpt like a log till 3 den wake up~
ultimate shiokness~~~ haha..

bf called and say to meet up so i went to prepare...
dili deli till 6 plus den he msg mi to give the green light for mi to leave my place...off i went...to harbour front to meet him...

had KFC for dinner..like finally after i recover i get to enjoy~haha...
after KFC we started walking around...bought a new bag and key chain from espirit~
lol..shoppin spree was on since pay is in...pamper myself a lil~

love tat smile<3

my new bag~

my new key chain~

bused home..lol..
thru out the day i was all bubbly and happy...even more high and hyper when i got the bag..lol..
but...when i tot it was gonna end nicely...some stuff happened..it jus suddenly wipe my smile off my face..haix..complications...

totally moodless now cux someone is unhappy...it seems i jus cant keep u happy..how and wat should i be doing to bring that smile back on ur face...and the secure feeling so as not for u to worry...i really am helpless...

u nv fail to make mi smile~

i love you lots lots~ baby~

kkx..dun wanna think so much..
off to facebook gaming...
tmr still gotta work..
lights out soon~..

ps : mr L...gd luck for tmr's competition=) u can do it~!!! jia you~~~

sch was dreading long today~
wasnt in the mood to do anything but slacking...
contribution in class is like ultimately low...i wonder wat my grades will be like...
as usual...lesson were dragged and ended late...once she end i packed up and off to jin man class to meet her den to meet mr B den we walk to mrt station tgt...

ps. sorry mr L~ ps..

train to city hall for another shop visit while love and mr B dropped off at bishan...
as usual...chit chat...tok nonsense...vivi was working too..had a short catching up session with her at mphosis~

when i'm shag..naturally my pics looks ugly..for outfit..maybe jus a 60/100...

after visit...trained home...
reach home...bathed...watched some show till i fell aslp...on and off...hahaa
being the lazy me i laze on my bedroom floor and eventually i fell aslp...
jus woke up..so now after i blog..i feel so refresh i jus wan to play game..cannot slp~
lol...

kk..off to facebook..
nitex
=)

my day was spent in sch for FYP...
too tired till i overslpt...meeting start at 11am...i woke up @ like 10.10am...
omg...rush and got prepared...only reach sch around 12.10pm...so sorry fyp girls...i'll try to be punctual in future...

anyway...fyp was in a mess, thanks to our so "helpful" supervisor...now we're are lack of time...
everything is not done...pilot test for our survey and other stuff...it's really killing, we're behind time...

we decided to speak to mr aaron tham...indeed...thanks to him we at least now have a direction and lucky for all the smart co-operation of our team...we manage to come up with all these things...yup...let's work on it girls..we can do IT~!!!

fyp meeting ended around 4pm...brenda left sch with mr bf, efy stayed back to wait for bf, sha sha got training as for eka and me...we decided to head home...walk in the rain to the bus stop...but with our hoodies on...dun wanna fall sick further...haha...
bused to interchange den i separated frm her...last min decision were made to do shop visit so i took train down to city hall to visit my fellow colleagues~ =)
all i can say is...i'm so happy to see them cux it's really been long since i last work...lol...did some catching up with them...became free labour for a moment..help them pack free gift cux they were busy serving customers and changing display...

chris pass by after his work so i left with him to take train~
met his friend ben=) he was playing mr cool..hahah...
anyway thru out the journey...mr chris was busy disturbing mi...lol...
alighted at amk..den bused home...got a letter frm NLB..lol...i have overdue books..mean i have to pay fine..haha..

cook for hungry lil fire...bath him...bath myself and now i'm in front of my lap top blogging=)

jus a lil tots...
i dun uds why i cant jus be myself, play by my rules in my life...why am i always playing according to other ppl's rules...i feel so...lol...i do not knw how to describe...it's like others ask mi to do a task and i will do..i'm like a machine for ppl to control...i like have no choice but to follow..haix...it's like i do not have my own life...i have to abide the rules set by others becux they're more senior? becux they're more practical? becux they're more experience? or becux they jus knw wat is best for mi?
seriously at times i feel sick and tired abt this..but i dunno why in the end i will still do wat others say...i think simply to put it, i'm dumb ba...dumb dumb like me jus need to follow instructions...dumb dumb like mi jus easily believes wat others say...in my world there is no lies..only facts and truth...in order to uds i mus be mature enough to anticipate wateva tat cums...hmm...is tat wat everyone is expecting from mi? i do not knw...i jus knw...i'm really tired...i jus wan to be myself...can i not play gd girl anymore...can i be a bad girl at times? i seriously do not knw...hahaha..nonsensically i type this big chunk of rubbish...ignore mi...i'm just whining ba..hhaha

my ugly med~

ohohoh...did i mention? i'm back on a special diet~
hahaha...for today i only ate half a mini beef lagsane=) den drink for the day were 2 ribena and half cup of milk tea with pearl~
POWERPACT...
i'm on special diet frm now on...haha...

okok...
gtg...needa go back to my medication since i'm starting to have sorethroat again~
den slp is wat i think i need most ba
haha...gdnitex
toodlex...

day was passed rather mono-ly...nth interesting happened...lesson was as boring..

the me today got super hyper after the powerpact 5 mins nap in class...lol...
powerpact to the extend tat i wanna say Japanese are stubborn i pronounce wrongly n i called them slut..which eventually i became the jker the "slut"....lol=)

after lesson ended...rushed back home...bf met mi at my place...waited for mi to feed baby fire n off we went to bishan to watch land of the lost...

stupid movie...

On the way while on the bus to yck mrt station...we met this funny chinano guy...he played his chinano song like damn loud thinkin tat he own the whole bus...the stupid thing is...he was playing this song abt missing home..parents missing him with all the "O~~" & "ah!~~" LOL...damn cake~

ok..back to the subject...we reached bsh den bought the 7.40 tics...grabbed our bite at Ljs den off to cinema to catch the show....all i can say is...we paid $7.50 to watch a F***ing lame movie...lol...it's jus nth but nonsense....it's jus purely laughing n more laughing tat's all...it's not really worth but i think it's not bad to spent tat amount to laugh idiotically in the cinema @ a stupid lame movie=)

masking is so shiok..

after the movie..i took the circle line back to s'goon while bf headed home on the north-south line...home...i'm back once again...now reviewing my FYP stuff and also...pampering my skin..lol...doing mask..shiok only~ enjoy only~
tmr still gt FYP meeting at 11am..jus hope tat god give us more time...cux we really need it now...
god bless..
i'm off to do my stuff...
nitex n toodles<3

YEAH~~

finally officially back to sch on monday...i miss this class of mine the most...cux i have the most fun with this bunch of gays~

Constantly...thru out the day i was busy disturbing mr ckm cux he was the handicap...he fell off the bike while cycling...poor him..most of his right side are wounded...STILL...we jus disturb only..lol..dun be angry ok..u knw we love u buddy =)

Get Well SOON~!!!

ok...back again~
Finally UT 1 is officially over...lol...no more stress for the time being?
rest period...but studying will continue...i mus workhard~

after UT ended...got done with RJ and stuff and left sch with ms jin man=)

love was real nice to acc mi home to feed baby fire...fire was a bad boy...barking non-stop at her..thinkin she's over stepping his territory...lol...so sorry love..i apologize on behalf of baby fire..=)

cabbed down to s'goon garden ICE3...
had my sumptous dinner cheesy chicken with wedges and ICE CREAM while love jus had her cookie crunch=)

ICE3

our ICE CREAM~

My dinner~

yummy~

camwhorin session~


=)

hongkong Cafe

omg...it jus looks so nice...

still got other food but mr Lwas a glutton to have started eating before i could snap pics

chit chat den she left for home while i headed down to meet mr L at kovan HongKong Cafe...
chit chat and tok nonsense...den i was sent home=)
al tired..i'm gonna head to bed...
nitex and love<3>

Finally a Sunday w/o work...
and when i tot u could enjoy myself and slp it thru till the afternoon...
i gotta wake up for my quiz...SIANx...
got up all early jus to do the stupid quiz that gt cork up due to connection in sch (UT)
haix..got done and back to slp..lol..

was being ask to wake up again at 12 plus by bf..lol..cux i was slping like a pig..like no bodies business...lol..went to shower and stuff den out we went to the new shopping mall at somerset=)

i swear it's damn big...lol..with many shops & many escalators...not all are done..but really a messy mall..all the shops everywhere..lol....sofa seats everywhere too...lol...nth much so we left for far east...


the long long escalators~

have my late brunch there...walk around..nth much den we head over to DFS..see see look look den jump over to wisma and to taka...lol...jumping like a jumper~!!! =)

after all the jumping...we went to heeren=)
guess who i saw...AH SA~ Charlene Choi with her manager and bodyguards...
nobody notice her..lol..i got gd eyes...hhaha...she is so pretty...lol...she was shopping around...wanted to snap her pic but her bodyguards jus knw how to stand...they blocked my view..haix...nvm...still...i think i damn lucky..go shoppin also can see celebrity...=)
not forgetting....I met jin yi and bf there too...haha...

after loitering around the mall...we decided to head to cathay cineplex for aston...yummy yum yum...queued and waited for our food in totally for 1 hour den we got to "enjoy our meal". With a filling stomach...i headed home on bus while bf went over to yang place for texas...

take 1~

take 2

final take~ NICE~!!! fav pic=)

wat's for dinner? wat should i eat later?

ASTON - bf's

ASTON - mine~

outfit for the day~

i just love my new shoes~ <3

gtg study for tmr's ut...omg..god bless...
nitex and love
toodles...
out i go=)

woke up all early hoping for breakfast...
plans were made to head down to chinatown for daddy to see doc and breakfast but stubborn daddy changed his mind...

there goes my breakfast...haix...so i fell back aslp till 11.45am...
woke up...wash up..and on the couch i went...tv all the way...
only till 2 plus den i went to prepare and headed out to raffles place to meet mr bf...

mr L was nice to have acc mi thru out the journey on the phone..but basically i helped to kill his time too as he was very BORED~!!! thank you=)

met up with mr bf..and realise wrong mrt station so we trained down one more stop to tanjong pagar -.-!!!
walk to our all time fav...SAKAE teatime BUFFET again~!!!
but this time round...yang and wifey were there to join us...after buffet...we went to sim lim in search for bf's phone's stylus and yang wifey's lap top skin~
after tat....the powerpact part...

DURIAN SESSION!!!! ##$(*##%&%#$@#!
hahah....super happy mi..after being sick for so long...finally..during this fav session..i get to eat my fav~!!!!hahahahah
YUMMY YUM~YUM~

the durians we ate for round 1....there was still round 2=)

after tat yang drove mi and bf back to bf's crib...
ok...lazy mi is going to go surf the net and slp..nitex to all and toodles..
god bless all durains to be big and NICE~!!!
i love DURIANs~!!!

super adorable laptop skin.......omg...i jus wish baby fire will grow up as healthy as them...

nitex and love~! <3

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