9.......

day 5...
had the bestest dream and i didnt wanna wake up..
it felt so real...i wanna stay in it n nv wake up...
but..all have to face reality...so...
woke up early despite slping at 6...
i cant slp back...so might as well get out of bed..
headed to sch to print some papers...
after which...down to paya lebar to meet classmates for study session...

everyone is muggin..only he's enjoyin ice cream....

everyone left around 6 plus 7 while i stayed and continue alone...
i envy them...how i wish i could do the same..
leave to meet bf or gf for dinner..
but for nw i dun have tat privilege i guess...
studied till 9 plus 10 den train to bedok to change bus...

to darling D :
frm ur fb i knw u're still recoverin frm ur cough..pls take gd care of urself..
if u fall sick i will too...cux i will worry n fall sick...so darling pls stay healthy...drink lots of water...
i dunno how's work for u but i hope it's fine..i pray tat it'll be smooth for u till graduation n to ur 1st flight in sept...

without u by my side i found how fragile i am..
sorry for always acting stubborn..
u jus wanted to protect mi..i took it for granted n even jk abt it after ndp ..
so sorry my love...hope tat u can concentrate well n do ur best for work..
i'll jus be here waiting...waiting for all things to be done..wait for u to be ready to put trust in me again...i'll be waiting...nv give up~!

off to bed..

10 days and countin down...

4th day....

my mood was still as moodless...

on a happy note..at least today i gt more response on sms side...

was watchin soccer at mac while studyin...

brings back the memories...

frm at the start i knw nth much abt soccer till nw..a lil more knwledge on tat...

u influenced mi and got mi to love this sport that u love alot and was proud of all along...

i miss world cup times...

stayovers and late nite matches with u in bed...

coachin mi on wat "offside" was..who the players were...

making silly side bets on who will win the match...

i really miss those times...

after match supper at 511 market...

i really miss the times...

it's been studyin n more studyin...

as promised to nt be affected for studies...

wed is my test n i really hope to see u, hug u, kiss u before my test...

i believe i will do super well if i get to do all tat...

at least i'll be more confident with ur back up support...

but...i cant ask for tat nw i guess..

i wonder if u've totally recovered frm ur fever n cough...

i hope tat u stay healthy...stress free...but i guess u set a benchmark for urself to hit so there is certain level of pressure on u...

24/7 i'm standby by my phone..waiting for ur call or sms or replies..

they act as my motivation to study nw...

i really miss u alot...

tmr shall be studyin session again but in the noon..

studyin out with classmates

off to bed..

enuff rest den will i be able to control and concentrate better...

nitex

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

11days more...

3rd day..

i'm dying....
mummy and dady doesnt knw abt wat's happenin...
actin as if nth happened is tired...
pretendin to be fine...
forcin myself to eat...
nt wantin them to worry...
still...when all day cums to an end..
when i'm in my room alone...
or out on the streets strollin...
as long as i'm alone...tots starts flooding in....
i hope tat there is a time machine...
bring mi back to the past...so tat i can prevent all stupid things i've done frm happenin..
so tat i wont screw things up....

i keep thinkin to myself...
other than waiting wat else can i do...
been thinkin abt poppin Questions to u like..
can we start all over again?
can we give both of us a chance to start anew?
give it one last chance to make it work?
so that there is no regret...cux at least we tried....
i even tot...if i say i'm dyin...will u cum back to me?
funny tots of endin my life...gettin injured also came floodin in...
i knw it's silly but i cant help it...
studyin hard as promised but by a certain point of time..concentration would be much affected by my tots...
the uneasy feelin lingers...
the insecure feelin surrounds...
one thing for sure...
i'm determine to hold on all the way...
i dun wanna give up...n i will nt!

tmr is the 1st sun without u...
usually my sun is simplified...
filled with u...soccer n snuggling session at ur place...
suddenly i dunno wat i can do tmr...
most imptly i dun feel like doing anything...
i jus wanna lie down and think abt u...
i miss u..really...
i've nv missed a person tat much before..
i hate to emo..but i cant help it...
i miss u lots..love u as much or maybe more than before...
i jus wanna be the one...
the one tat will always be there for u...
i wanna be forever urs...
like our 1st mth gift says..together forever...

off to dream abt u..
do cum into my dreams tonite..
love...
nitex

2nd day...12more days to go...

it's the 2nd day...

totally lifeless...

i think i look like zombie?

met up with sha for work..

work keeps my mind occupied..

still..during short periods..my mind still wonders...

after work..off to study...

till nw den i'm back home...

i knw n uds ur concerns but still...

u haven let mi try how u knw i cant do it?

who can gurantee abt things in the future?

i dunno abt the future..

i only knw tat i am determine to do it..n i will achieve tat...

i jus need a green light...

of all things i promised..i guess only the studies part is on track...

as for health...i failed my promise..cux i think fever is here tgt with sore throat...

food wise..my appetite jus isnt gd..jus surviving with water or liquid stuff...

i knw this has to be change...i'm tryin but my worries n all..jus ends up with only lil food consumed..i'll still try...

gonna head to bed...

it's a sat..very 1st sat without u...

i really miss u alot...

我要的只是你在我身边.........

heavy heart....

went to sch with a heavy heart...
couldn't concentrate at all...
it jus keeps runnin thru my mind...

2 weeks..
but jus the 1st day...
1st day i fluster...
i really dunno how it will be for the rest of the 13 days to cum...

hoping for it to turn for the better...
like i promised...
i will study hard...stay healthy and eat healthy...
but...this heavy heart is affecting mi ttm...

i regret my feedback..
i need this 13days to pass soon..
i wish time pass faster..
i jus knw tat all i ever wanted..
was jus to stay by ur side...

i jus pray tat for these remainin days...
no other someone to affect ur decision...
pls dun have a change of heart..
gotta try to head to bed..
more studyin session tmr plus work...
nitex

title:我怀念的
artist:孙燕姿

我问为什么 那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么 不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
但被逼失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
但被逼失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口

谁忘了
我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炙热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥

谁爱的太自由
睡过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自里走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔
(我怀念的)

我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了 所以我
没有对 没有错

call mi silly HEAD~!

i slpt all the way till like 4pm in the afternoon..

nt becux i wan it..but i jus coma...
apparently, silly or should i say dumb mi...
anyhow take medication last nite...
mummy say i was lucky to have jus slp it thru...
if nt i think i should be in the hospital by nw...

well..
since my day started so late....
i nv got to study...
shower..gt prepared den out i went to work..
met up with ms sha..sorry babe..always make u wait...
so..work was fine..
i almost black out..lucky i brought my water out and sha was with mi..
if nt...yup..

 

fugly look...

so..safely home...gonna head to bed..
3.30pm lesson..
relax only~
nitex

and my bad day continues..lucky it ended nice...

0 pics still...

too ugly to take pics for nw...

anyway...

previous post i was sayin how unlucky i was...

today~! i mean today it cont~!

late for lessons...nvm..

followed by bringin the wrong notes to class....nvm...

bad luck ultimatima falls as rain...while i was walkin home frm the bus stop outside=.=

drench like a water duck~!

end product?

raine falls sick...

down with flu...

arghh~~ lucky thing is last min shoot for tmr postpone so...

i still have time to nurse tat flu back to normal...

lucky thing was...my day ended nicely..nt badly cux silly n mi had a heart to heart tok..

lots of stuff mentioned..

baby, i love these heart to heart sharing session..

u make mi feel so loved...

i believe i got to knw more n uds more...

kk...enuff of mushy stuff...

so no shoot tmr = more rest

but work is still on tmr evening~

meetin ms sha~ loving my partner to the bits~!

we share lots of things yo~

since morning i free...i shall dedicate the time for studyin...

anyone wanna join mi????

med is taking effect..

i'm feelin drowsy...

hands starting to tremble..

i'm headin off to bed...

gdnitex~

"self-contradiction"-.-

one moment i was saying...

in previous post tat FML should exit my life...

next min in this post this 3 alpha will be appearin again...

seriously...FML~!

i really do nt knw why when things seems fine and under control...

other bad things jus cums following...

my day started in a slpy manner..

it ended with shit..

i almost roll down a flight of stairs...

i sprain my foot...

even still i gotta walk home in tat pair of heels and the minor sprain foot...

why am i so unlucky...

i think it's jus down on my luck...

all my life..it's been like this?

i would really like to ask god..

when? when will it be my turn to enjoy some gd luck..

some gd deals..when will it be my turn...

haven i queue long enuff?.

i knw i'm whinin..

it's irritating..

but seriously who on earth dun whine abt their life..

i bet everyone does...

jus whether it's verbal or written only...

i'm havin insomnia..

my hands are trembling credits to the medication i took for flu...

my eyes are sore frm the lack of slp and crying sessions...

i seriously i dun even knw why i'm cryin for..

basically..i think it's lame to be emo but...i emo..

so i emo = i lame...

rubbish post..

jus venting the rubbish out off mi...

only less den 2hrs to slp..

pls..god bless mi for tmr lessons...

0830...gd luck...

i knw i haven been bloggin still as promise..

but due to lappy's strike i couldnt even go online at all...

internet explorer nt updated and stuff...

jus my bad luck den...

time to reformat and update it..

need some help~!

anyone willing to help mi pls.....

life's been busy since sch started...

i'm happy and satisfied with wat is surrounding mi...

great bunch of sch mates, grp mates...

having silly with mi is a plus pt~

i'm having happy life..

gd life...

so i shld stop whining...

stop FML-in..

cux...i jus need to be happy..

and i am happy...

off to bed...

nitex

i've been lazy plus busy~!!!

blog is full of dust and webs...

i promise to blog starting frm tmr nite=)

too tired n i'm off ta bed...

nitex~

Longest yet most interesting day for the week~
got to sch all early for my 1st 8.30am lesson..
trust mi! it's super "hypnotic"
glad tat i manage to survive thru tat 3hrs without dozin off~

after lesson..
off to lunch at bukit timah market with the rollers~
lots of chit chats with topics running around..."nutrition"
3 alphabets to describe out convo...L.O.L~

after lunch we decided to head down to town for some coffee~
H joined us too..
super nice to drive us there...

COFFEEBEANSSS~!!!

continue with chit chat...
after which some went off while...
me, zanne, wifey and h shop and walk around...
left the place to wifey's crib...
gt some stuff..camwhored~

out again we went fforrr....
GOLF~
even though i didnt get to play much but...
this sport is interesting...=)
lots to learn still~ more sessions to cum~
wanton mee for dinner~
home swt home on cabby~
dead tired~!
shall k.o
nitex

PICTURE-LIMITED~

2nd day of my sch...
was of cux well spent with accounts~
more info on topic = more ???
i'm still trying my best to get use to the lecture system..
which is totally different frm rp's pbl...
rollers were awesome cux we sat tgt..
credits to the bookin of seats by my fellow team mates~

3hrs of lecture ended..
train with suzanne...
alight @bedok to meet bf...
KFC yum yum~
after which..home to collect some stuff..
off to bf's crib..
tmr's gonna be an early...DAY~
8.30am lesson..
god bless mi..
hopefully i dun slp in class..
need lots of candy~!!!
nitex..i'm off to bed~

weee...i jus bought my housing for bb~ FERRARI YELLOW SPELLS SWEEEE~!!!!!

1st day of sch...

Full of ??? ?_?

rollers were awesome~
after sch rollers got tgt to print notes~
left sch with wifey~
H was nice to send us back to tpy~
koi~~ chicken rice = nice~

after which to popular to shop for some stationaries..
home swt home on a bus..
tired tired...
off ta bed~ sch tmr again~

Chilly Sunday...

the weather today was super great for.....
SLPING!
piggy mi snuggle in bed till late...
all the way till silly got mi up at 2plus..
quick lunch and out to cab..
drop silly off at tamp mall while i head home to drop my stuff...
shower and out i head again to tamp mall..
met up with silly for movie~

DESPICABLE ME! 3D

my fav~ MINIONS & AGNES~

lika finally i get to watch this show~
i love lil agnes and the army of cute lil minions~!!!
after movie..ajisen for dinner~
shop shop shop...and i bought a bag~ wee...
kk..gtg...
tmr's sch day 1~
needa slp..dun wanna look like panda~ nitex!