day 9...

i jus wish for a holiday...
i jus hope to go on a holiday with u...
jus u and mi and a beautiful vacation...
forget abt all frustration n stress...jus relax and enjoy couple holiday...
i keep havin this strong feel tat things will work out eventually...
it's jus whether or nt u're willing to try..
i mean i've already gone all out to grab hold of u..
all i need is jus for u to give it a try and hold onto mi once again..
the future i painted when we 1st started...
i see us loving each other till the day we grow old n die..

u told mi off a few time for my benefit...
all becux u cared abt mi, u wanted mi to be mature n sensible...
u've ask mi many "if"s and "why"s before sayin it for real becux u also still harbour some hope for mi...
hoping tat my change for nw will be permanent....
u can say all these are assumptions but den again, to mi i feel happy abt it...
cux thru tat i showed u my determination, i wan u to knw how impt u are to mi, how my priority list came to be topsy turvy and big changes happened...
u said u knw mi and ur character are nt the same..tat is also an assumption...
we have lots of things in common..we eat soft dun eat hard, we both are stubborn, we both love each other till madness but controls n try nt to show it all out in case the other party take it for granted, we both cares alot of each other in terms of fallin sick takin med n we both are proud to show n tell others abt each other presence oso afraid of losing one another we guard our status by tryin to clarify and promisin tat no others can cum between us and we will only love each other, tgt forever.

i had a bad start becux i tot playin unreasonable would make u love mi more, guess the wrong move was made...i'm really sorry...i can say as many sorrys to u if u wan mi to..i can even write a 100 sorrys jus to show u how sincerely sorry i am...but nw, i knw wat i wan, i jus wan to be with u, love u, dote on u, pamper u n make u happy. i maybe be a rookie to the things tat i am doing now but i'm sure i'll do so much better with more practices...all i need is jus a chance tat's all..the reason why we drifted is becux u've been busy with work while i've been busy with sch starting n all..n our consecutive everyday meet up sessions are all burnt out..lesser meetings=(
becux of tat when we dunno how the other half spent the day, speculation starts, eventually friction cums in den argument broke out...i admit i have nt been a perfectly gd gf, but i'm changin for the better nw...learnin how to really be a gd gf...i dun need u to be rich, smart or anything, i jus need u to accept me and my love and love mi back..even if it's nt wholeheartedly i accept too cux it's still loving mi...

i knw it's impossible to go back to where we started but..we can always start all over again..frm knwin each other more...time n effort are ur concern feeling it's unfair to mi but i dun care n dun mind cux i jus wanna shower u with wat i have...i dun need anything in return...this is really i swear the very 1st time i'm so determine abt my feelings...i swear it with all my heart...

i love u, no one else can replace u in my heart..
be it 10 yrs down the road or even longer...
sounds so exaggerating but it's wat i have in my tots for days...
i see my future painted with u in it...
tat's all i knw...
i believe in miracles...
i believe god had sent u as a gift to me..
for havin been hurt so many times before...
this is the only time tat god had given mi my true one...
tat is u...D

nitex