mixed feelings...

day 8...

woke up super early at 7..hopin to study the notes and get it fixed in my brain..
still..becux of fever..i couldnt concentrate..
i jus think there goes my HD again....
didnt really have the mood for the whole day becux of flu..
eventually fever subsized..but still moodless...
till when it was at 6pm while i was walking home...suddenly this sms came and my big smile stayed hangin on my face thru out the evening...

but...
hmm...actually i have mix feelings...
when i told u abt the incident in sch...i was hoping for some care or something but den i jus got straight forward and direct feedback, saying why did i tell u all tat n u're nt at all frustrated over the matter becux u dun really wanna care, totally ur style...i mean i uds tat this is the consequence tat i have to face for being stubborn..n indeed after we hung up i was quite sad n moodless...
but den again..i suddenly tot to myself, if u didnt care u wouldnt have told mi all the stuff..if u werent worry u wouldnt have sound so irritated and frustrated..hmm..den i felt better...but tat could also be a misuds-in frm my side becux it might be like wat u said..it's jus a friend kind of thing..

i'm sorry if i disappointed u again...i'm always calling u silly..in fact i should be labelled as the silly and dumb one..i knw i started out late, i knw u're startin to lose faith in mi or maybe had already lose long ago but den to mi, u can say i think too much or wat but i jus think tat u are all out to wanna push mi away frm u by sayin things tat are neg, giving mi cold shoulders n all..but the nature u is not like this..i knw it! u're nt tat kind of person, stop making urself look like tat kind of person, u're nt~! and u nv will..

ur joy and happiness cums frm SIA, ur job nw, as for mine, it cums frm u, when i see u happy, i feel happy too..call mi stupid or dumb, i jus knw tat this person here is a fantastic guy and all i wan is for him to be happy....n most imptly i'm glad i got to be part of his life, lovin him with all my heart n changing for him...

i'm headin to bed..
tmr got lesson at 3.30...
nitex world...

我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好....